Today’s “load” is/was very heavy and not because it packed out my garage, but because it packed out my heart. This week while we were all concerned about COVID-19, where to find toilet paper and sheltering in place I was busy moving the oldest of my bunch out of her apartment. It’s so strange, because I knew I’d be doing this for a while, but I wasn’t prepared.
This was the equivalent of me sending a kid off to college…she’s twenty-five but it was still really hard. I’ve watched her pull out of my drive way many times before, each time knowing that she’d be right back. Today, was different as she loaded her things into her car, I knew this “I’ll see you later” wouldn’t come for a long while.
I’m sad because, “The hey sis lets go get something to eat” calls will stop. The “I really am turning the corner” text will cease. The “Wash your hands before you go in my fridge!” speech wont be for her. My kitchen cabinets will be open for reasons other than her. Even, in my sadness, I hope she knows that even with all the tough love there was/is genuine love. Although she will never live here again, there will always be a meal for her at my table and a place on my couch.I hope she know’s, that I am only a phone call away! I hope she knows that there will be more frequent calls to say, I love you!” I hope she knows that my prayers will persist.
I am sad yet very grateful, to know that as she left Louisville this evening heading back to Detroit she isn’t alone because the Lord is always present (Psalm 139:7). Secondly, she is running back to the arms of her mom who loves her just as I do! As I watched her drive off today holding back tears (ok…I cried a lot) I realized, no matter how many kids we parent and send off into the world, we still need our heavenly Father. Today, I rejoice because the Lord constantly show’s me how much I need him. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is my strength. Nehemiah 8:10
What has reminded you this week that you still need Jesus? How are you responding to that need? For me this week it will be spending time in His word and praying!
Thanks for allowing me to share my “load” today.